Be Grateful For The Time You Have
It took a while to get here. I was not always this happy. I was once sad. I am sharing a part of my life that was a depressing period. I completely understand if you stop reading right here. It’s not for everyone. Just know: be grateful for the time you have.
I remember every morning I would wake up and I would feel like I have a cloud negativity that followed me around. My smile became fake. I kept everything inside and expressed nothing. I faked happiness. I became bitter and cold. Bad things just keep happening. I wait constantly for something good to happen, but nothing. I try to focus on the good in life; but more and more every day the bad slowly took over.
My life started to change.
November 2013, my uncle was diagnosed with cancer. He was like my second father. I keep asking myself, why. Of all the people in the world, why him. After some chemo treatments, he showed improvements. I thought it was going to be a miracle. But it changed. He became weaker. He was having trouble breathing. He didn’t have much time left.
He was an angel in my book; he was so sweet and caring, he put others before himself. I was kept thinking it was unfair. I was grateful for the time we had. I just wish we had more time. Not a day go by that I don’t think about him.
As I sit here, in bed, I can’t help but cry. It has been almost three years and yet it felt like yesterday. I cannot remember the last thing I said to him. I didn’t get to say goodbye. I didn’t get to say I love you. If only we get a re-do button, but we don’t. I have been living with this regret. It was not until I completely hit rock bottom that I pulled myself together.
From that point, I changed.
I realized that this was not what he wanted for me. He would want me to be happy and live my life to the fullest. I wanted to make him proud. I started putting my life back together. Every morning I would wake up grateful to live another day. I would smile more and it is genuine. I would count my blessing and thank God. I would try to surround my life with positivity.
The struggles of life shapes who you will become. The way you handle things will affect who you will be.
My experiences have taught me to find the light in all the darkness that surrounds me. And hold on to it; use it to find a way out of the darkness. To wake up thinking positive. To be grateful for every little thing. To live each day to the fullest, for all we know it could be gone tomorrow.